Monday, January 5, 2009

a short two months

I can't believe it's been over 2 months since I've posted something on here. Time flies!

I've had a lot of people tell me that the end of a pregnancy goes by the slowest. I hate to do this (not really), but I have to STRONGLY disagree. It seems like it's going by faster and faster every week. It's so hard to believe I'm almost 35 weeks along at this point. In a month I could be holding my first child in my arms. Completely surreal.

I have been very blessed with a relatively "mild" pregnancy as my husband puts it (and he's right). There really have been no complications, and I have pretty much been able to go about my day to day life without much changing. The last couple of weeks have been a little different, I suppose, but for the most part it's been smooth sailing.

However, when I went to the doctor's today I was informed that things may be progressing a little too quickly. Apparently my cervix has gotten thin, and the baby's head is very low. This in essence means BED REST.

It's only been a day, and of course my initial reaction is that of a very selfish one. "What about the grocery shopping?" "I'm not done cleaning up from Christmas." "There's laundry to be done." "Who's going to make dinner?" "I'm going to be stuck on the sofa or in bed all day?" "I have a lot of living to do!" Yes, I know. It all sounds VERY whiney.

But I see the blessing. My husband has really stepped up to the plate. He has no problem running up and down the stairs to get me a glass of water every half hour, as well as carrying things around for me and not letting me get up or move around a lot. Did I mention the half hour foot massage he gave me tonight (and already has been doing on a regular basis)?

Some very dear friends came over right away with a meal for our dinner tonight (thank you, Greg and Natalie!). A true expression of love within our congregation. What a blessing! And even enough food for tomorrow night.

Instead of taking on the "me" attitude, I am going to be challenged for at least the next two weeks to put someone else's needs before my own - my baby.

A couple of women in my life have been such an encouragement to me recently regarding my situation. They have reminded me that God is in control and that I should take advantage of this time to rest, reflect on what is about to happen to our expanding family, pray, read, and enjoy not having any "expectations" of me. I am truly blessed, and I am thankful now for this special gift of "time" from God. I trust that He will show me how best to use it and that all things are in His hands.