I have been avoiding blogging about this because I wanted to keep it private for about 3 more weeks. Yes, I'm pregnant for the fourth time. I have been so tempted to start documenting everything but haven't been ready to "go public" so instead I've decided to document it as of today and keep it private until we are ready to make the big announcement. At that point, these posts will be retroactively public (retroactively? Is that right?)
Anyway, I have known for over 5 weeks now. Wow! Time is flying by. Things have been going well and, thankfully, different than last time. Okay. I'm getting ahead of myself. First things first, I found out because of a silly little comment my Mom made (the day we went to plant the flowers actually). After we picked out the flowers she suggested we take Ethan for ice cream. While sitting in Coldstone I expressed my desire to redecorate our house. While muttering about furniture, she gave me a suspicious look and said "you're nesting." I laughed to myself and I think out loud a little too. Was it possible? I was sure it wasn't because Aron had been travelling a lot, and the timing seemed to be way off for that to even be a possibility.
Later on I stopped at Target and picked up a 2 pack box of First Response tests (feeling very silly because I was so certain it was impossible). We got home and I opened the box, took the test, sat it down and turned the bath water on for Ethan. I had actually forgotten about it and a couple minutes later noticed it on the counter. I headed over to the trash can, fully prepared to see only a single line, glanced at it and couldn't believe my eyes. (i literally didn't believe them) I held it up, squinted a little, and there it was. Unmistakable. The faintest second line.
In fact, I was in such disbelief that I didn't tell Aron that night. I just thought if it's for real when I take the second test tomorrow morning the line will be darker. I laid in bed that night, kept the possible news close to my heart and spent some time with the Lord, reading His Word and talking to Him. I remember praying that His will be done and thanking Him for this precious, and rather unexpected, gift. Unfortunately, I think I had been through so much heart ache the last couple of years that it would take a few more weeks for the possibility of having a living, healthy baby to be a reality in my mind.
I woke up the next morning, took the second test, and knew for certain that my eyes were not playing tricks on me the night before.
Anyway, I have known for over 5 weeks now. Wow! Time is flying by. Things have been going well and, thankfully, different than last time. Okay. I'm getting ahead of myself. First things first, I found out because of a silly little comment my Mom made (the day we went to plant the flowers actually). After we picked out the flowers she suggested we take Ethan for ice cream. While sitting in Coldstone I expressed my desire to redecorate our house. While muttering about furniture, she gave me a suspicious look and said "you're nesting." I laughed to myself and I think out loud a little too. Was it possible? I was sure it wasn't because Aron had been travelling a lot, and the timing seemed to be way off for that to even be a possibility.
Later on I stopped at Target and picked up a 2 pack box of First Response tests (feeling very silly because I was so certain it was impossible). We got home and I opened the box, took the test, sat it down and turned the bath water on for Ethan. I had actually forgotten about it and a couple minutes later noticed it on the counter. I headed over to the trash can, fully prepared to see only a single line, glanced at it and couldn't believe my eyes. (i literally didn't believe them) I held it up, squinted a little, and there it was. Unmistakable. The faintest second line.
In fact, I was in such disbelief that I didn't tell Aron that night. I just thought if it's for real when I take the second test tomorrow morning the line will be darker. I laid in bed that night, kept the possible news close to my heart and spent some time with the Lord, reading His Word and talking to Him. I remember praying that His will be done and thanking Him for this precious, and rather unexpected, gift. Unfortunately, I think I had been through so much heart ache the last couple of years that it would take a few more weeks for the possibility of having a living, healthy baby to be a reality in my mind.
I woke up the next morning, took the second test, and knew for certain that my eyes were not playing tricks on me the night before.
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