I'm going to venture away from my usual topics today. I have been avoiding writing anything about this subject due to its deeply personal nature, but I feel that I can no longer omit it as it has become such a huge part of my daily life.
I suffered a miscarriage in December of last year (2009). I learned I was pregnant in November and had heavy bleeding with large clots for about 4 weeks before we found out our baby no longer had a heartbeat. Yes, it was one of the most difficult things I have ever been through. After some episodes of severely heavy bleeding, several ultrasounds, trips to the doctor, a visit to the emergency room and weeks of praying, God in His mercy took our little one home to be with him. On December 23rd, I went in for a scheduled D&C to remove the tissue that my body was not passing. When I was being prepared for surgery they took my temperature and discovered I was beginning to run a fever. The nurse informed me that had I waited much longer I may have been in a very serious situation. In God's providence He spared me from a possibly dangerous infection.
When I came out of anesthesia and saw the doctor standing in front of me he told me that I lost an unusual amount of blood after the procedure but assured me that the procedure had been successful. This is one of the most amazing examples of God's providence during this ordeal, but I'm not going to explain why just yet. You will read about this more later on.
Losing my baby was the most painful trial I have ever experienced. But here I am 3 months later, and just a few days ago God has blessed me by allowing me to see just a glimmer of his amazing, unfathomable providence. My miscarriage probably saved my life.
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