I wanted to have this moment on record because I need to be reminded of God's goodness. I so quickly forget where I've been and more importantly what God has brought me through. I was just going through a pile of my EOBs from 2011 from our health insurance over the years. (Yes, I keep paper copies of everything. I'm old school. What can I say?) Any way, as I read over the literally dozens of claims that were paid out (or appealed so that they would be paid out) I was brought back to that time when life looked so bleak. I remember thinking back then that all I wanted was to be healthy and to stop having to see doctors on a regular basis. I would have given just about anything. I never in my wildest dreams imagined that I would have been blessed as I have since then.
From what I've read online (and once in awhile I still google it to see if anything new comes up) I have never seen a story like mine. I've never seen someone with a uterine AVM go on to have as many successful, drama-free pregnancies as I have. I'm overwhelmed today by God's mercy, and I'm totally convicted of my faithless, sinful, worrying heart. In spite of my fears and anxieties God chose to bless me in ways I never would have imagined. The glory is all His.
"Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me."
(Philippians 4:11-13 ESV)
